February 9: I Love My Daddy (and Mom does too)

We have a winner in the weekly Ethan Poll... "I Love My Daddy" won by 1 vote; with "My Diaper is Huge" coming in a close second. It was fun to watch the votes come in, thank you! We'll try another one at the end of the week.




So, I had a little bit of a rough weekend. I think the adrenaline that I was running on for the past couple of weeks wore off and I was left with exhaustion and anxiety...which caused a small, tiny meltdown. For the first time, I started thinking through the 'what if' scenarios. What if Ethan wouldn't have made it? What if there were complications? It was horrible. I hadn't let myself go there before and I totally stressed myself out. And if you know me well, you know that I shut down when I'm stressed out, which is exactly what I did over the past couple of days. So if you have called or emailed or reached out in any way and I haven't gotten back to you, I'm sorry. I will soon, I promise. :)

I am feeling better. Jon and I worked through it yesterday and in true Jon fashion, he was there to support me and make sure I was ok. I spent all of Sunday with Ethan while Jon sacrificed time with the little guy to organize our life. He spent time with Otis, filled my prescriptions and went shopping for the week. We also got the condo straightened up and the clothes washed, so everything is on track for a good week. I don't know what I would do without Jon... seriously.

On the Ethan front: he is putting on weight on a regular basis now and it is showing. He could hit the 2lb mark by tomorrow! Jon has a bottle of champagne chilling for the occasion :) His little belly is getting all chubby and his cheeks are filling out. His head is definitely growing as well. He's looking more like a full term newborn every day. He is staying awake for longer periods of time. And you can really hear him now, whether he has little sneezes or hiccups, or an all out fit of crying. I can't help it, I love it when he cries even, cuz it's so cute. He continues to impress his doctors and nurses. Both Jon and I, on separate visits today, were told that his progress is extraordinary for a baby born at his age. Both updates came with reiterations that this is the exception, not the norm. It's common that there are problems, some of which the babies grow out of. But he's had none (knock on wood)...When they think they see a problem pop up, it just goes away on it's own or becomes a non-issue. We can't hear this enough. We are very lucky. And when I have one of my little 'meltdowns' in the future, I'll try to keep this all in mind :)